32: I’m a little worried

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Yeah I know I have college on the brain but can you blame me? I mean It’s less than a month away now. Stuff keeps happening and I at least have the first semester paid for already. So that’s fine.

The thing that might be getting to me is leaving. It hasn’t quite hit me just yet but I guess that’s to be expected. I can’t just realize what it’s going to feel like when I’m gone and in a new place having a roommate for the first time. It’s not something that’s easy to just take.

I’m the kind of person that thinks and thinks and thinks some more before I do anything. I also prepare myself for anything and everything I can before it happens. It’s almost like I’m setting myself up for failure just so I can be prepared for worst case scenario. It’s not necessarily a bad thing, it is just something that makes me, me.

It’s something I don’t want to change or grow in. It’s odd but I enjoy being prepared and thinking things through instead of heading head first into a new situation.

I’ve thought this through already and I believe I made an amazing choice but I just worry about myself emotionally.

I’m not an emotional person, I am more logical so I worry about that sometimes. I don’t want to be known as a robot so I make sure to show emotion ever once in a while or at least try to explain my feelings. It’s better than staying silent.

This is my system. I’m worried but that’s a part of the cycle. I’m going to be fine.

I’m just a little worried.

48: Discovering Treasure

I am packing a little bit more than this........

I have gotten most of my packing done for next week. I am moving to Santa Fe in 12 days so I thought I should at least get started on the actual decisions of what to take and what to leave behind. It’s kind of hard to pick what clothes or what shoes to bring. Yeah, I’m a girl but I did bring it down to a non-girl amount. I don’t have that much stuff picked out so I’m pretty impressed.

When you clean stuff out or pack you find some pretty cool stuff and go reminiscing for some time. That’s kind of why I did the packing a little early compared to some people.

Also when you’re packing and deciding what to take it can be hard because you want to bring so much and tend to overpack. I guess I over think things but I just don’t want to bring too much stuff and it not all fit into my dorm room.

It’s exciting and terrifying at the same time so I guess we’ll see how it goes when I come to it :) Memories are nice though. It’s kind of hard to leave the things that represent those memories but I guess that memories are always with you. Those are treasures in themselves.

42: Moving On

Growing apart, yet still connected

The fact that I’m moving to college really soon could be why I’m really noticing it, but everyone is going away and living their own lives. Their things are all in boxes and planning longterm, like years in the future. “Don’t worry guys, we’ll talk on facebook and I’ll see you in about 4 years.” It’s a little weird to move further away from the people you considered to be close too in your life. All of us are growing apart.