Yeah I know I have college on the brain but can you blame me? I mean It’s less than a month away now. Stuff keeps happening and I at least have the first semester paid for already. So that’s fine.
The thing that might be getting to me is leaving. It hasn’t quite hit me just yet but I guess that’s to be expected. I can’t just realize what it’s going to feel like when I’m gone and in a new place having a roommate for the first time. It’s not something that’s easy to just take.
I’m the kind of person that thinks and thinks and thinks some more before I do anything. I also prepare myself for anything and everything I can before it happens. It’s almost like I’m setting myself up for failure just so I can be prepared for worst case scenario. It’s not necessarily a bad thing, it is just something that makes me, me.
It’s something I don’t want to change or grow in. It’s odd but I enjoy being prepared and thinking things through instead of heading head first into a new situation.
I’ve thought this through already and I believe I made an amazing choice but I just worry about myself emotionally.
I’m not an emotional person, I am more logical so I worry about that sometimes. I don’t want to be known as a robot so I make sure to show emotion ever once in a while or at least try to explain my feelings. It’s better than staying silent.
This is my system. I’m worried but that’s a part of the cycle. I’m going to be fine.
I’m just a little worried.