19: Floating Along Searching Part 3

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When I thought I was safe, someone should have slapped me in the face for thinking something so stupid. If there was such a person then that would be fine because then at least there would have been someone to discuss stuff with. Some one to suffer with.

This is an island I found. It’s safer than the ocean that’s for sure. I woke up on the beach of an uninhabited island. Great. But I have to be positive. This island is better than nothing. My legs are shaky. I can’t stand very well right now and I am so thirsty.

I look up and hope for water on this stupid island. There has to be some kind of thing to drink here. I have to survive.

I learned something new. I got what I wanted, it rained. Yeah I got water but now I’m really cold and wet. I learned how to make a shelter. Good for me. Did I mention this really sucks. At least I’ve got water now. I somehow figured out how to save it. Don’t ask.

Things are hard here just like in the ocean. What is with this world making it so hard for me? At least it’s better. I need to explore when I’m more settled. How weird I’m actually settling here. Stupid.

I have looked around a lot and have a rhythm again. It just sucks a lot less now. Things are hard. My feet hurt and I keep learning new tricks. At least I can do things now. I’m quite impressive am I not?

What was I thinking? I’m still stuck here. Why is that impressive? I should at least know everything about this place I’m stuck on. I am going adventuring. Good thing I have my skills now.

What skills was that again? I fell too many times. It’s really hard but this island is not too large. It has quite a good amount of vegetation though. I’m not hungry.

I have selected the best place to stay in now. I’ve started keeping track of the days on this tree. Too many days have passed. Things are hard still. Will they ever be easy again?

I want to be found. I want to be saved. Why can’t I be helped? Don’t I deserve it? I work hard and its difficult but I deserve to be at ease right? I’ve been on this island for a while now. Don’t I deserve something better than having to go through all this trouble?

What am I saying? What have I done to deserve anything? People don’t get things easy like, they earn them. I earned this island and I will earn something better. I won’t be a princess in a tower I haven’t acted like one yet. I won’t lie, I wished it was that easy.

This is the same as the ocean. I will find something better. I will work for something better.

Time to start on that.

12: Perfection should never exist

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Isn’t perfect scary? Who would want to be perfect? I don’t understand that need. It would be predictable and annoying not to mention just plain boring. It’s also impossible and rightfully so.

People strive to be perfect and that is just silly to me. Why would you want to strive for something that is not reachable? What is perfect anyway? Who came up with such a silly word? Some think of it to be without any faults or defects but isn’t that impossible? You can tell that its been debated because they add to it stuff like “satisfying all requirements” or “as close as possible” is sort of like qualifying it. Perfect used in the term of “Ideal” is an acceptable use of the word but some people really believe that someone is perfect or should strive for it. What a silly view.

Perfect is boring. Sometimes the gems with the blemishes and imperfections are the most beautiful and interesting. The “Ideal” person doesn’t make it the best or the most wonderful one. Who would want to be perfect anyway? Isn’t that hard to keep up?

Perfect means you are at the limit, the end of your existence and can’t and wouldn’t be able to advance any further. How depressing. Who wants to reach a limit? Who wants to be just perfect? Who wants to be “Ideal” or “Satisfying”? Nobody should want that.

We should want to be better. Become our best and work to be better. If we got to a point of “Perfection” wouldn’t that be depressing? Our life would hold no other meaning anymore. If someone could even grasp perfection then what else would they have to do anymore? They would have no meaning anymore.

This is how I feel though. Maybe I’m wrong or whatever but I find perfect to be annoying and terrifying as well as impossible.

I should hope that perfection never exists, ever. It would be a bad day, depressing and the world would lose all meaning. I want to always strive to be better.

I want to work and work and sweat and fight and tire and try again the next day. I want a battle and I want to be better. I am selfish and greedy, I want more and I want to be smarter and I want to be more understanding. I want so much. I want everything.

Perfect would get in the way. There is no perfect. There is no “Ideal”. There is only better.

I want to work and be better. I want to keep living to be better. I want the best and then I want something better than that.

I am greedy but I want to work to get there. It can get better.

Perfect will never exist for us humans.

Perfect is stupid, I look for something higher up than that.

Don’t you want to look higher too?

10: Smiles are Contagious

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Isn’t smiling great? Smiling is very important and when you’re sad, a smile from a friend is everything. We use smiles to put people at ease, make a good impression and simply to show our happiness. How is it that something so small as a smile is capable of changing your day?

A smile is special and so very useful. It can express your happiness in a way that words cannot. Just getting a friend or a special person to smile can be the whole point of your day. And when you smile that transfers over to a friend or loved one so easily that they couldn’t possibly not smile back. It can be oh so very contagious, much like a good laugh. When you really care, something as small as a smile can mean so much.

That simple upturn of your lips can be a mask to hide behind as well. When you want to hide your pain and sadness a smile, while now not contagious, can keep people at bay. It hurts to be sad all the time and it’s hard to be around friends when you can be a little depressed but sometimes a smile to cover that up, no matter how difficult it is to do or how unconvincing it is, is all that you can do. It is something to hide behind, something to give to people instead of sad expressions or tears. Even if it doesn’t work it is at least something.

All we want to do is be happy right?

Smiles make people happy. Smile. Smile. Smile. Just writing this makes me smile.

If I can make people smile just by writing and sharing then I think I’ll have to do it more often.

Do what makes you happy and if you get the chance smile, smile for other people so that they too may in turn smile back.

Keep smiling.

37: Evil?

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I would think that everyone’s belief is that evil is, well, evil. It’s bad right? That’s the main consensus and we think it’s bad and that is what we all blame everything on. It’s the evil in people who turn us against each other or that the devil is what makes us do the bad things.

I don’t know. I think evil has it’s purpose though. Yeah, I occasionally like to be the devils advocate so I think I’ll defend evil’s existence.

35: Why we should Dabble

This is my play on words. Dabble- for a duck or bird: Move the bill around in shallow water while feeding

So for some of my college work I am reading an excerpt of Aristotle’s, The Politics. Let me be clear, it’s not very clear at first. To add to that, this is a reading for the Freshman Music class that is required. That’s right people, I am reading Aristotle for my music class and the title has politics in it.

I’m sure you’re thinking “why Lea, is your college making you read that for your music class? Shouldn’t you be learning about notes or something?” Let me tell you I was a little confused at first too.