Today was the first official day of classes. There was this clash of emotions. The feeling of being unprepared the lack of confidence and then just the utter excitement of so many new classes and knowledge to gain.
I have the schedule type that gives me what is known as a hell day. I have 4 classes that average about an hour and a half each. It can range from an hour to two.
Basically it was a long day. It was ridiculous how much work I did, how much I learned in just one day.
So much homework due the next day, so many chapters to read, so much WORK.
I’m not used to it. I won’t complain because it’s fun and I enjoy class and enjoy learning here it’s just such a drastic shift from high school.
The expectations were so extremely low in public school. I was expected a lot of personally and by certain teachers and parents but these tutors seem to expect so much. It’s not bad. It’s almost reassuring.
It’s like they know I can do it, that all of us here are capable of learning such a wide spectrum of subjects. I feel capable here. It’s only the first day but I already feel so changed and so excited to learn more. I know that this year is going to be great and I just want to work hard and have fun in such a beautiful place.
How can I put how I feel in words? How can I express to you, the reader, how this feeling of encouragement and elevated environment has affected me?
I feel like questioning so much. How can I be a better person? How does this lesson of music relate to lab, relate that to seminar, and that to math. How can Homer, Euclid and Aristotle be related and speaking of the same problems, the same issues and ask similar questions?
Bottom line: First day, success.