27: I will be happy

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Blogging every day is kinda hard. I’m at 27 now and while there is a lot to type about I don’t know if I really feel like it all the time.

This writing everyday, it’s really good exersize for my mind, but I guess it can be a little difficult. Sometimes stuff happens and you don’t feel like sharing or nothing acutally happens.

Stuff happens I guess. There’s nothing much I can do about it and won’t cry. I’m not exactly the crying type anyway. What’s worse is when things happen and you kind of saw them coming. You feel like some sort of idiot.

I don’t really know if that makes sense but I guess what I mean is something like this. For a person who thinks in worse case senarios, I can say that it henders you a lot when you want to do things or be happy. It’s like some kind of inner battle with yourself before things even happen. The thing that really beats down on you is when what you were expecting to happen actually happens. It loses its surprise or pain.

Part of me is happy for that. Part of me is glad that I morn for a loss before I lose it because everything is lost eventually. It feels less hurtful when it happens. You feel the pain but at least you can face it better. Pain makes you stronger. Thus that makes pain important and good, in a way.

I say that but I also find it a silly and a stupid way to look at things. Pain should be avoided right? Pain is awful and hurtful and can scar people for life. How can such a thing be good?

I should be happy. I really should. Things are going awful but I really should be happy because things are going great for me as well.

Stuff happens and things get in the way but I wont make excusses. I wont say I can’t. I will be happy. I’ll take fear sadness pain anger, I’ll take all of it on and beat it to the ground. I wont lose. I don’t like to lose even to feelings. I wont stop those feelings from happening. That’s impossible, but I will not be ruled by them. I will not cry untill I wish too.

I will be happy because I should be.

Politics: yeah they affect you too

I know that politics suck. No body wants to get into it and trust me I am with you on that one. Basically politics is a form of manipulation that is legal.

I finally decided to post another blog because

1. Its been a VERY long time since ive posted a blog
2. It’s a sort of tribute to my government and economy class I took at ACC
3. I know my buddies are all taking that class now while I am typing this on my off period and I thought I would give them a heads up.

So what I learned is that our founding fathers were geniuses. I mean, you realize that they came up with this years and years ago and we still use the system today. My ACC teacher was in love with the Federalist papers and we mostly focused on 10 and 51 (which were written by Madison) and those thoughts were amazing. While I for one hate what people did to politics and warped the central ideas of the founders, I have to say that Government is an amazing subject filled with interesting ideas and policies that somehow fit together in a way.

Just so you know my favorite quote is from Madison, and I will never forget it because it is so TRUE! “If men were angels, no government would be necessary.” I love this quote. If we were perfect, if we were infallible, incapable of being tainted or committing evil then we wouldn’t have to give up our rights or to be more accurate, our freedoms to a government.

I feel people are being stupid if they think that they can have all of these benefits and stations, or more facilities without having to pay taxes. It’s freaking equivalent exchange. YOU must give something up to GET something back. You can’t ask for things and expect to get your taxes lowered too. It’s ridiculous how people think. You give up things to the government for a reason. You can’t go around taking other people’s things because you gave up that power so you would be protected from other people who might just do that to you. 

All of this power that we as individuals give up, is given to the government and is equally split up among the Federal and state, the branches of government, the representatives, the law makers, the mayors, the neighborhood leaders and even church groups. All of this power given up is shared and divided so that no one could possibly be able to completely take over the government. It is literally impossible. Unfathomable.

They made it that way on purpose. People like Madison knew that if humans had too much power then they would be corrupted by it. I know that if I was the only leader of a nation, I would have to split my powers so I won’t take over and manipulate and misuse my power. I know that I am capable of being corrupted. I am after all human.

So even if you don’t like politics or are at all interested in the government, there is a reason to learn it. We are affected by it every day. The ads on TV the things we eat, the books we read the money we are paid and pay as well as the rules we follow are all aspects that have been touched by the government that rules over this country. 

It’s good but it’s pretty awful too. Sometimes you’ll look in the news and see actual representatives of the states say things like “We need to get rid of the 14th amendment” and you’ll think “WHAT THE HELL! ARE THEY ALL RETARDED THERE!” (the fourteenth amendment, you will learn, it is an extremely important amendment to the bill of rights. It makes sure that you are protected from not only the federal government as well as the state. The states could have technically done whatever they wanted to the people legally for almost 80 years untill the amendment was ratified.) You WILL most definitely feel like the government, that is so important to everyone in this country’s lives including yours, is run by a bunch of idiots and that it could be better led by a bunch of teenagers. (I do) 

You will also learn that the media that supplies us with information is led by a small group of people who are billionaires and don’t care if you get accurate or unbiased opinions, just that they get a profit.

YOU WILL be disgusted by businesses (like the ones that caused the oil spill in the gulf) that care more about money and getting a profit than the greater good or the safety of their employees.

It’s a disgusting world out there and you go to class to learn these things and not stay ignorant of the world around you. They affect you whether you believe it or not.

Maybe you’ll learn something this year. After I finished my class (BTW I got a B so take that suckers!) I felt like I really got to take something from that class. I felt better prepared for life and found my opinions a little after that semester.

I hope everyone has a great experience like mine.

Good luck to all of you that has to take those classes. (My heart goes out to you while I sit here comfortably typing this out during my off period. :P take that)

I just don’t feel like it ok?

How hard is it to respond “I just don’t feel like it” and not get yelled at. I really don’t understand. I recently finished my summer reading “The catcher in the rye” and I relate to Holden, the main character. He always talks of how phony people are and how he feels like he wants to puke about things that are so fake and how he doesn’t feel like doing certain things just because. And I get it. I really do.

 Part of me feels like I should just throw up my hands and just say “I give up! If you want it done then just do it your self because I DONT FEEL LIKE IT!” I know it childish and unbecoming of a “young lady” like my self but I don’t care!

Why. I’ll tell you why. I am sick and tired of everyone always whining about this and that FOREVER. I get it, you’re tired and life sucks, and even I myself like to whine till the day is over but I stop when the sun comes up the next day. It’s over and I got it out of my system. But SOME people just love to whine all the time!

My mother, I must say is a prime example. She complains all the time and to me that’s fine. I would too when being put in the situations she’s been in. But god just do something about it. I would have gone and blown something up and ripped of a few heads dealing with some of that stuff. (and those who know me and can’t see me doing that, I could if I wanted to ^.^ )

Today at this moment, life sucks to me. Everyone out there watch out because you’re in a sea of ass holes and you better bring some blunt objects to beat them off with. How they came that way I don’t know. Sometimes, like at this moment I wish God would just put us through some terrible event like a zombie apocalypse and let the Darwin effect set in. Then all the dumb jerks out there will be put down at last because we will finally be allowed to hit those jerks. *Sigh of relief*

Now I know I am being harsh and mean but I don’t really care too much right now to be nice. Be glad I am mean here than out there in the real world or I would get into trouble a lot. So if another jerk comes up to me and everyone expects me to be nice this is what I will be thinking…

I just don’t feel like it ok?!